Saturday, February 20, 2010

Cancer again

The next week I was walking by and saw Tyler standing by himself holding Becca's purse, "I heard about your mom. How is she? How are you?"

He told me, "It doesn't look good" He said, "It's all I can do to get up in the morning."

I told him I had been praying for his mom. It felt trite and forced, but it was true and it was a good thing to say (I guess.) I stood there semi awkwardly for a few minutes before I walked away.

I think I did pretty well there, for not knowing him and all, but that was almost the last thing I said to either of them.

Wondering what I should do besides pray. I can't fix things, and I know that God can. I know God can comfort people better than I ever could,--

--but I also know that we aren't supposed to leave everything to God...

Remembering those times when I was hurting and certain people said or did just the right thing to make my heart feel a little better.

I would like to be that person.

But its hard to know how to not just stand there awkwardly. It's hard to know what to say to people.

Romans 12: 15 "Rejoice with them that do rejoice, and weep with them that weep."

Corinthians 12: 26 "And whether one member suffer, all the members suffer with it; or one member be honored, all the members rejoice with it."
Isiah 61:1-3 "The Spirit of the Lord GOD is upon me; because the LORD hath anointed me to preach good tidings unto the meek; he hath sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives, and the opening of the prison to them that are bound;
To proclaim the acceptable year of the LORD, and the day of vengeance of our God; to comfort all that mourn;
To appoint unto them that mourn in Zion, to give unto them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; that they might be called trees of righteousness, the planting of the LORD, that he might be glorified.


d. said...

It's not ALL up to you Esther... but I DO know that you can be a comfort and help people that need it. You may not know it, but you've helped me in certain situations unknown to you. Just keep doing all that you can and leave the rest up to Jesus. He will see that His will is done. I have faith in you Esther. I have Faith in Jesus Christ. If He is calling you to be of comfort to certain people, just keep doing what you do and keep PRAYING about it.. you may never know the impact that you have on others, but something tells me that you will be of great help.

btw Esther, I never meant to make it sound like you hated me. On the contrary... I know I may not be your favorite person in the world, but I know you don't hate me. I suppose posting in French wasn't the best way to convey what I was trying to say... but I will gladly translate for you if you want. I only wish you happiness and all the best that this wonderful life has to offer. I always have. With that said, bye for now.

Anonymous said...

Hello. And Bye.